So in love...

On Tuesday I held Emerson for the first time and I instantly fell in love! I had wondered if you could really love your second child as much as your first...well, my dad was right....your heart finds more love than you ever thought you had. I fed him 1cc of donor milk to get his tummy used to food but he wasn't a fan. The nurses say they will continue with the feeds until he keeps it down.

The team of doctors that we met yesterday said he will have his ups and downs but nothing is out of the normal. He is off all oxygen and tomorrow they hope to put a pick line in him to reduce the risk of infections. He had another Ecocardiogram today to monitor his heart murmur. They are watching to make sure it doesn't get any larger and they are on the fence with giving him meds to help it heal. I guess we will wait and see.

We are currently back in Minnesota getting life in order and I hope to return down within the next couple of weeks. The doctors goal is for me to be there enough to help facilitate in his care. It gives me anxiety to think of being away from home for 4-6 weeks but I have two children to think about now and Emerson needs me way more than Sophia and Troy do.

Thanks again for everyone's thoughts and prayers. I don't have many answers at this point but I trust that God has a plan way better than my own!